Dark Matter

We all have different voices in our heads, like the lover, the practical one, the empathetic one, and the playful one. Sometimes, to get a grip on things and look at things from a detached perspective, I talk to my practical side, a.k.a. the third person.   Here's a poem I wrote for this voice: ****** I carefully save that cash for future, one that seams so bleak.  I fight with my thoughts—should I just be enjoying the present, or continue saving?  Past regrets being my continuous reminders Screaming of all the impulsive decisions I took in shivers I find myself standing with one leg in the future, and one leg in the past,  all the while drowning continuously in present's vast. In these moments of internal chaos, strain & hassle compose. So, I stop and take a step back  Ask myself—what is causing that knack. I realize.. nothing. NOT A FREAKING THING. Putting things in perspective is what I lack. Talking to myself as a third person helps a lot. Most times it'...

D o you often catch yourself zoning out because you're too deep into your thoughts? Do you also find small-talk boring? Do you usually choose to stay quiet but become annoying once someone mentions a recent hyper fixation of yours? Then, my friend, you're a deep thinker. Therefore, my tribe. And this is for you.  

“Kabhi kabhi hum mushkil rasta sirf is liye chunte hai, kyun ki humein lagta hai, important cheezein paane ke liye humein mushkil rasta apnana chahiye. Apne aap ko punish karna bahut zaroori samajhte hai... ...But why? Aasaan rasta kyun nahi chun sakte? Kya burai hai us mein? Khaas karke jab us mushkil ka saamna karne ke liye hum taiyaar hi nahi hai!” -Kabir Khan, Dear Zindagi

The subject of "being authentically yourself" has always interested me. To the point that I have had myself speak on the very same at various school assemblies as a youngin. I don't understand what is it about this subject specifically, probably the Leo placement in my birth chart *self-absorbed much*  or maybe the constant effort to be the most distinct personality in the crowd.